When I first started Parisian To Be, I never expected that it would either grow or become the great commitment that it is. In the back of my mind, I yearned for a more diverse and more quantified following, but never really thought about how it would feel to have people actually read my ramblings. Well, it's happened, and I am ever grateful. But I'm a perfectionist at heart, with a shed load of self-motivation, and a lacking self-confidence. My blog was a place where I could ramble, take a break from Chemistry nightmares, and ballet drama (and it does happen on a Dance Moms scale, sometimes). I love my online niche. I pour in my heart and soul. But like, many things you care about, it's hard to see them struggle or fail. This isn't to say that this blog is failing in any way; just look at the comments you type in everyday. But this is a message to bloggers alike about struggling with the reality of blogging.
There is an unspoken internal battle between blogs and followers. Like a popularity contest, everyone wants to be the most popular girl. In relation to myself, my statistics disclose that my blog isn't growing at the rate it once was. I was frustrated. But a brief chat with my business major dad pumped my brain with advice. "It's natural," he says. "Every business has highs and lows; spikes and declines." The stock market is the perfect example. Although I glance at my follower count on a daily basis, I've attempted to unattach my obsessiveness and intense emotions behind it. It's just a number. And those people quantified love my blog, and I'm really lucky because of that.
In an effort to revive myself from my blogging rut, I churned out the best content that I could and put massive amounts of effort into it, too. Soon enough, the follower number started going up again. That being said, there are two conclusions that can be drawn. Put effort into blogging. Some people do it just for followers, others just for PR samples, and there are a fair few who do it for themselves, out of passion. That passion is what produces a stunning product. Don't get caught up in the other stuff. The rest will follow if you rely on your heart; I'm hoping it will for me, at least.
But, I bet there are many people in the world who are just like me: obsessive, people-pleasing, perfectionists. I often take blog photos three times within the span of a week to ensure that it's pleasingly perfect. As you rapt up the stamina to blog to your full potential, don't drive yourself insane; it's easy to do. Understand that your standards are different than other peoples--they're often much higher. And you can't please everyone. Beauty is subjective. Be proud of your work that may not be obsessive, because it's still beautiful.
Mending creative content is difficult, and I'm running out of ideas. But, sometimes, it's okay to go through these periods of time. Whenever a rough time strikes, tell yourself that "it can only go up from here." After one door closes another opens, and after every recession, comes a spike. I'm really adamant about what I want this blog to be: a diary for the everyday girl (maybe with a little bit of a bad obsession with beauty...). A girl who won't review all the new beauty releases, or even fifteen. A girl who is a minimalist. A girl who loves the power of beauty to make her feel more confident and enhance her natural complexion. A girl who wants to play a friend-like figure, who her viewers can ramble with about beauty. And that, I hope, is Parisian To Be. I thought that buying new beauty products would give me more blogging fuel, but I don't think that's the case; I don't even want to buy anything else--but only because I have restraint, as I do have a wishlist the length of my arm. But blogging comes from the heart, not from other resources. Finding your heart and spreading love is what creates a kick ass blog.